I cry alone in the darkness of my room that shelters me from everyone and everything that hurts me in life.

When I have to leave it though...all the hurt and pain floods back to me making my head spin around and round in circles until I fall over. It attacks me like I'm a stranger but yet I have visited this place most often.

I get back up only to be knocked down again. But with the help of loved ones, picking me up on there way by, helping me through my day.

Then you came...you not only picked me up on your way passing by but you held me close and took me with you. Making sure I wouldn't fall.

Sure enough, this pain inside me was strong enough to overcome you holding me up and in fear that it might start attacking you, I tore myself far from your grip, running and stumbling as far away from you as I could. I didn't want the pain to consume you like it has me...it's too late now.

The pain of the love that I have for you attacks my heart deep, it hurts so much that I have to keep my mind preoccupied.

I listen to my music and pretend to carry on a normal life, smiling for parents and teachers and handing in my work...the new me has came.

I'm not sure if I like this stranger barging in on my life.

I want out of this pain but there is no hope...none at all.

SCREAMING FOR HELP BUT NONE COMES. THEN SUFFERING!!! YELLING LET ME OUT! But my chance for anyone to help me is gone. I let you go now I must pay for the coinciqences...so don't worry about me.

I keep telling myself "I'm ok" "I can make it through this" "Don't give up yet!"

Nothing works.

This is the pain of my life...and my biggest regret ever.

~Crystal~