What an amazing day this has been. No wait amazing isn't the word. More like boring! Today went by way too slow. I thought I was gonna die with how slow it was going. Yesturday I found my journal that I hadn't written in for a while. So I wrote in it to waist time. I was just so amazed at what I had in there before and I remember the exact moments when I was writing them and where I was writing them. Which was usually on the top bunk in my old apartment late at night while my sister was on the computer.

As usual I was listening to my music staring at my walls thinking of things to write. My mind sometimes feel like the walls. White and blank but yet it shows every emotion possible. I'm still working on my book. I'm typing it up and I think it's coming along pretty good. It shows a lot of my feelings in with the characters and hopefully, others will like it and not just say they do, expecially if they know me.

What's it to their opinion anyways, right? Well for some people, feedback on certain things are important. Being honest about the feedback is even more important. It helps the writer or whatever the person is or wants to be accomplish there goal.

You're probably wondering if I'm like drugged or something. I probably am but who cares? Actually no I'm not drugged, sorry for the disappointment. What do you expect from someone who stares at white blank walls and tells them secrets that she would tell no one else. Maybe her fears, what she feels, the tears she hides from the world with that smile. What she likes, what makes her sick, who she loves. You're probably thinking, who cares about her. What about my problems. Well here's what I'm thinking. I care. Not just about me but about people who care about me. If you are one of them then you know that you are loved and if not then I guess I don't care. On the other hand if I don't know you then you have a chance!

Okay back to reality. Everyone with me? Good. *kicks herself in the butt* I was dragging behind. Anyways, the thing I am trying to prove is that you can't really judge a person by their looks, or if you know a little tiny thing about them. Rumors go around everyday and if you believe them then you are gonna be the stupid one in the end. No, I didn't learn this from experience, I was born stupid.

~Crystal~