You all ask me if I'm trying to starve myself. No I'm just not eating. Don't have an apetite anymore. I am not trying to be like those skinny no good models in magazines that wear practically nothing. Unlike some girls, I wear clothes and keep my body to myself.

Where is crawling all over someone just to sleep with ya gonna get you? Absolutely no where! Maybe a kid and if you don't have a job, still attending school, trying to get a life...then that could be a bad thing. If you aren't attending school, being a lazy bum, depending on your parents to wipe your own ass, then I suggest growing up first before you get knocked up.

You ask me who this is for? It's for anyone who thinks they can't be anyone because they are so called "stupid" or just too damn lazy to do anything anyways. Yeah sure, you get to have this cute lil kid, but what about when it wakes you up at 3 in the morning crying cause it's hungry? You're not gonna be too happy.

Who's the father? Well if you crawl all over any guy then it could be anyones. You ain't gonna find a stable husband to support ya when you have a kid. You're charm might have worked before when you were a skinny lil bitch but what about now? When you are becoming fat with this fatherless kid of yours. Abortion? Would you dare take the life of a un born child that was your own fault you have it now anyways? I would hope the hell not. If you even think about that then you are pretty messed up.

People have the courage to sit there and complain about homeless poor people. Well maybe if you gave them a damn chance then they might have a chance to make a living and get off of the street so you wouldn't have to complain anymore. Makes sense? I hope so.

On a different subject...Why is it that people think they care about someone and then they don't when they get to know them or grow a lil close to them? Hmm...I think it should go the other way around, get to know em, then find out if ya like em or not. Again, I am not saying about anyone specific. Just talking.

My walls get very boring to talk to sometimes so I figured why not talk to the computer screen this time.

I'm gonna go back onto the cancer kick that I went onto a while ago in one of my diarys. Once again, as so many times before, many of the people whom I love is dying of cancer. I'm going to see her sunday and the doctors only give her a couple weeks if that. I've been making a blanket for her so she would always have somethint to remember me by. It's not done yet but almost. Hopefully it will be done soon.

I'm going to a friends house tonight for a Christmas party. Yeah I'm not christian but that don't mean I'm gonna turn down a perfect oppertunity to meet some other people and get to know them.

I can't believe some of the people I meet on here, all interested in one thing...SEX! Yeah most teenagers are but that's don't mean you gotta go around asking everyone if they wanted to strip in front of their web cams. I mean come on give me a break! Anyways, I'm done complaining now.

~Crystal~

Take chances in life, You might never be able to if you don't.