I woke up this morning pretty early preparing myself for a long drive down to see my Grandma who is sick with cancer. I still kind of wish that I still lived down there so I could see her more often but I'm also kind of glad I moved. Not because of this town, I hate this town, this school, everything up here, I have nothing up here. But the move helped me realize some stuff. So I'm glad the move did. Also I'm glad for my mom. She's happy with her job, it's good pay and my dad finally found a job he could do too. I just wish that there was an easier way. But I guess life isn't always easy, right? We all don't get what we want.

I know for one thing that I'm going be out of here as soon as possible. I'm going to live in a nice log cabin somewhere far away from here and all my past troubles. Hopefully none will come back to haunt me...hopefully. Ever have that feeling like you are being watched by someone? I always do. Sometimes I notice it sometimes I don't...My sister yells at me for walking too fast on the way home and too school. It's because I have eyes on me, I feel it on the back of my neck. Gives me cold chills...what's even worse, is I feel it in my house too...like when I'm downstairs and on here. I hate my computer being in front of the front door. For one no privacy, and two the window...Gets cold chill

Is this what I really want?

~Crystal~